Some thoughts on the F-word

…That word being “fat”!

Yesterday I got minorly bashed on the LiftBigEatBig Facebook page (no butthurt here!) because I referred to myself as a “fattie” (which I am). I’ve also noticed that a few people have followed me on here who are into fat loss/related stuff. So, in the interest of full disclosure: hi, I’m fat!

I discovered fat/size acceptance & HAES (health at every size) around the same time as I took up lifting. For about 6 months before I took up lifting, I was going to a regular gym and I had told the trainer there that I wanted to lose weight. After taking up lifting, I decided that wasn’t my goal any more (and I am so glad to be away from the commercial-gym mentality where slimmer is better).

There are plenty of people who see me and say “You’re not fat!”, which is fine, but the reality is that I am. Also, “fat” is subjective – to some people, being a size 16 at 5’2” is fat; to others, it’s not. 

Personally, I choose to describe myself as fat. I have a roll around my tummy. I wear a size 14 or 16. I’m 5’2” and around 158lbs (depending on the time of the month & what I’ve eaten that week). Last time I got my bodyfat measured, it was around 35%. If you think that’s not fat, then cool; however, it’s my body and I choose to say that I am. 

I’m also not actively doing anything to reduce my bodyfat. Why? Because I don’t want to. Because I like myself as I am. If you think that precludes me from being able to lift or talk about lifting, then you can go read someone else’s blog – mine isn’t for you. Sorry. 

I eat a pretty normal diet. I don’t carb-cycle, I don’t fast, I don’t carb backload, I’m not paleo. None of those things suit my lifestyle, so I don’t do them. Sure, I might be a better lifter if I followed one of those diets, but lifting is not my whole life; my social life is important, and I need to fit lifting and socialising around each other. 

Maybe one day I will have a different type of social life (one that’s not so focussed around eating & drinking!) and then maybe I’ll eat differently. None of these things are set in stone (and it’s a lady’s prerogative to change her mind, right?!)

So, I guess what I’m saying is – this is me, I’m fat, I’m OK with it, and if you think that’s wrong then you’re free to not read this tumblr. 

Incidentally, if you’re fat yourself & you fancy starting lifting – just do it! You don’t need to be experienced, or athletic, or lean, or have a butt that looks great in booty shorts. Go for it!

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