Monthly Archives: March 2013



  • 20kg, 5 reps x 2
  • 40kg, 5 reps
  • 50kg, 5 reps
  • 60kg, 3 reps
  • 67.5kg, 2 reps
  • 75kg x 1
  • 80kg x 1
  • 85kg x 1 (with really terrible form!)

Bench press:

  • 20kg, 10 reps x 2
  • 30kg x 5
  • 35kg x 3, all with stops
  • 40kg x 1 with a stop
  • 42.5kg x 1 with a stop
  • 45kg x 1 with a stop
  • 47.5kg x 1 assisted rep, with a stop
  • 45kg, 3 singles, all with a stop

Hyperextension: 10 reps x 3

Band leg curls, blue band: 10 reps x 3

Lat pulldown: 25kg, 10 reps; 30kg, 10 reps x 2

Cable crunch: 25kg, 15 reps x 2

Spiders, 3 sets of 30s with a red band

I weighed in at 71kg exactly in the morning. 1 week until competition!



10 days til comp… I weighed 71.5kg this morning which is 500g within weight. Feeling fairly confident about making weight… fingers crossed!

Squats: 20kg, 5 reps x 2; 40kg, 5 reps; 50kg, 3 reps; 60kg, 3 reps; 67.5kg, 3 reps x 3

Deadlift: 60kg, 3 reps x 2; 80kg, 2 reps; 90kg x 1; 100kg x 1; 105kg x 1; 110kg, 1 reps x 2

Think I will open on 110kg at the competition, it was heavy but doable. 

Dimel deadlifts: 40kg, 20 reps x 2

Bench press: 20kg, 10 reps x 2; 30kg, 5 reps; 35kg, 3 reps; 40kg, 2 reps x 3; 47.5kg x 1 very hard rep

JM press: 20kg, 10 reps x 2

Positive things

After yesterday’s wobble I think it’s about time I listed some positive things about my body:

  1. I have visible triceps, which for a 36-year-old woman who used to have bingo wings (and who didn’t take up exercise until she was 32) is a pretty awesome thing. 
  2. I still have my boobs. I’ve only lost about 10% body fat in the last 4 years (from a start of 42%) so my boobs have gone nowhere. I know many people don’t like big boobs, but I’ve had them pretty much forever and they’re a part of me! 
  3. I have a wicked vein which pops out of my neck when I squat. 

What do you love about your body?


Another heavy day!


  • 20kg, 5 reps x 2
  • 40kg x 5
  • 50kg x 3
  • 60kg x 2
  • 67.5kg x 1
  • 72.5kg x 2
  • 75kg, 2 reps x 2

Yay! These felt heavy but strong. Very pleased. 

Dimel deadlifts: 40kg, 20 reps x 2

Glute & ham raises: 10 reps x 3

Bench press:

  • 20kg, 10 reps x 2
  • 30kg x 5
  • 35kg x 3
  • 42.5kg, 2 reps x 2
  • 45kg x 2

2 reps at 100% of my competition max (no pause though). Again, very pleased. 

Tricep pushdowns: 15kg, 8 reps, 10 reps

Decline crunch: 10 x 3

While I like to think that I’m quite content with my size & weight, there is one thing I still really struggle with, and that’s when people say they are (or were) gross/disgusting/etc at the size I am now. 

I realise that everyone is different and bodies vary, but I find it hard when someone says (for example) that being a size 16 at 5’2” is huge, or that being 159lbs is monstrous (those being my stats). Personally, on the whole I don’t think I’m gross/monstrous/disgusting/lazy etc, but that little voice of doubt still niggles me and says “But if they think they’re disgusting at your size… maybe you are too”.

Rationally, I know that little voice is talking nonsense, but it’s still hard to ignore. 

I think this is particularly hard for me right now, as I’m less than 2 weeks to competition and I need to watch my weight for the time being to make sure I’m not overweight on the day. I loathe restricting what I eat, it makes me thoroughly miserable & leaves me feeling like a traitor to the fat acceptance/size acceptance cause – even if it’s only temporary. 

Have you ever felt like this? How do you deal with it?