I just want my body to reflect my work ethic

that feel though : (
basically the only reason I would like to lean out is because i feel that despite all the time, sweat, and work i put into the gym, my body is no reflection of the strength gains and progress i have made in the gym. Vain or not, i want my body to reflect that hard work and commitment. and i will have that. 

I feel torn on this myself.

On the one hand, I don’t look like someone who lifts heavy 3-4 times a week. On the other hand, I’m proud to be a larger person, and I very much identify with the fat acceptance movement.

In fact I’d rather be part of the FA movement than any sort of fitness community, as I find FA just that much more accepting. FA/SA communities are awesome and cool, and I want to be part of that.