It’s interesting reading other peoples’ blogs about the scale & their relationship to it. I weigh myself pretty much every day, and I find that alright. It’s not too head-fucky, because I’m OK with being “overweight” for my height (I’m just not OK with being overweight for my weight class!)
In case it’s not abundantly clear, I’m not trying to lose weight to get to a “normal” weight, or to change my body composition – it’s purely for IPF weight classes. I like how my body looks right now, and I feel perfectly happy at ~35% bf; if the weight class was 75kg (which it was back in 2010!) then I’d be happy being 75kg. Health doesn’t come into it, because my stats are normal & I feel fine (what is “healthy” anyhow? To me, it’s another one of those nebulous things that nobody can define accurately)
Maybe I’d be a more socially acceptable size at 65-67kg, but why stick myself in the middle of my weight class? I’m not competitive as it is, I don’t want to give away one of my few advantages! Plus fuck fascist beauty standards anyhow.
The good news is that I managed to get a fairly decent 30% protein / 30% fat / 40% carb split yesterday, by not eating the oatcakes I’d brought for lunch. I did manage to forget to take my protein shake to work, and if I’d had that I think the split would’ve been better. So I feel happier today.
Yesterday I went & bought myself a lipstick (I’m trying to start to wear makeup) and was still wearing it when I got to the gym. My coach took one look at me & said “Are you wearing LIPSTICK? Do you have stuff on your EYES?! You’ll be wanting BABIES next!!” Ha, no chance.
On Monday he was calling me “chunky” and “porky”, so my mind managed to go straight to the phrase “lipstick on a pig” which was not helpful! I think my lipstick looks OK, although it’s weird to see myself wearing it when I’ve been used to 37 years of mostly-makeuplessness!
I don’t mind being called chunky at the gym; my body image is strong enough to deal with it (and hey, I’m chunky). He needs to not do it around other people, though, as not everyone is as grounded as me!
Last night’s training, which was speed work:
- Deadlifts: worked up to 6 singles at 85kg, holding each lift at the top for as long as possible to work on my grip
- Squats: worked up to 3 sets of 5 @ 60kg. Was meant to be 70kg but for some reason he wanted me to stick to 60. Annoying, because the 60s felt so easy
- Dimel deadlifts: 2 sets of 20 @ 40kg
- Pullthroughs & band curls
- Bench: worked up to 3 doubles @ 45kg
- JM press: 5 sets of 3 @ 40kg
- Hanging leg raises, 3 sets (more grip work)
- Spiders, 3 sets