Competition prep: week 3, day 2 (ish)

I skipped the gym on Thursday; the physio warned that after treatment my back would probably hurt more, and it did, so I decided to give myself a rest. But I went in today, intending to bench, then try squatting to see if it hurt or not.

  • Lots of stretching!
  • Bench: worked up to 5 sets of 5 @ 35kg
  • Dumbbell floor press: 3 sets of 10 @ 12.5kg
  • Squats: worked up to 5 sets of 5 @ 60kg
  • Good mornings: 3 sets of 7 @ 20kg

I took it all very slowly & carefully. I could feel the injured part of my back when I was squatting, but it didn’t hurt per se. I guess the proof will be in whether or not I can get out of bed tomorrow morning.

In terms of making weight, not eating much food has made me a bit miserable over the last couple of days. Last night I had a horrible dream in which I was weighing myself over & over, and never getting the same weight twice (thanks brain!).

I intended to weigh myself at the gym today and to be frank, I was dreading it. But, I got on the scales post-workout and was pleasantly surprised. It’s only the first week, so things may change, but for now it’s OK.

I’m finding this all a massive headfuck at the moment, though. To go from someone who has no issues with food & is happy with her weight, to someone who frets over every mouthful & has nightmares about scales, seems to be the opposite of everyone else’s experience of lifting. And I won’t deny I find it annoying to read exhortations to throw away the scale (literally everywhere in the fitness/lifting sphere) and embrace gaining weight when… well, I can’t (and I’m the “wrong” kind of heavy for those articles, anyhow – the verboten fat kind).

But meh, I’ve ranted about that before.

It’s only 4 weeks until the Farm Open now and I guess it’s 50:50 if I will make it there. I’ve no doubt my back will be better by then, but I’ve already missed a week of training. I suppose all I can do is cross my fingers.

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5 thoughts on “Competition prep: week 3, day 2 (ish)

  1. Helen

    So sorry the dieting is making you miserable. Are you ABSOLUTELY SURE that making weight for a comp is worth you being this unhappy? I missed 2 comps over not being able to cut weight due to risking mental fuckery and it was worth it.

    1. lozette Post author

      TBH I don’t think going up a weight class is going to remove my annoyance at the double standard that gaining weight for non-fat people is seen as brave & wondrous, while people who are not outwardly “healthy” who gain weight are seen as gross and slovenly.

  2. Helen

    No that’s true. However I meant this bit “no issues with food & is happy with her weight, to someone who frets over every mouthful & has nightmares about scales, “

    1. lozette Post author

      If I was happy with the idea of no longer being British Standard, then I would 😦 Just seems like a lot to give up for the sake of a couple of kilos.

      Once I’m able to total 270kg, though, I will def think about going up to the 84s.

  3. Helen

    I think your happiness and sanity is a lot to give up for the sake of a couple of kilos. That’s not to say I don’t understand why you are doing this because I do.

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