I’ve not felt very inspired to post here for a few days. I’m having a bit of a “meh” time at the moment – mostly with my work, but also with blogging (reading and writing). Luckily my gym mojo is still there!
Yesterday I woke up with a really sore/stiff shoulder – I guess I must have slept on it badly, but it was sore enough to make me miss Pilates because I didn’t think I could handle any of that arms-over-the-head stuff. I did go to BGWLC in the evening, though, for a heavy-ish bench session.
Today I’m strategically skipping conditioning. I’m going for a massage instead – I booked it before I hurt my shoulder and I’m very glad I did! I also have max-out deadlifts & 3 x 3 squats @ 80% tomorrow, so my legs need the rest.
I’m super, SUPER dissatisfied with my career & my style at the moment. Career-wise, all the enthusiasm I had for tech after doing my talk at Devs Love Bacon has dissipated once more, and I’m back to feeling frustrated & out-of-place in development. Maybe it’s just my perception, but I feel like there’s no place in dev now for people like me, who aren’t creative or entrepreneurial. And after 15 years I still have trouble grasping concepts and design patterns etc. Is it time to give up? But what else would I do?!
As for my personal style…. ugh, I dunno. I love having short hair, I like wearing jeans & t-shirts every day, and I will never remember to put on makeup (i.e. mascara) on a regular basis. But I don’t really like what I see in the mirror, especially now I’m heavier. I just feel sloppy & unfeminine. But do I want to look feminine? My style inspiration at the moment is mostly Big Boo from Orange Is The New Black. My favourite t-shirt is an oversized one from Pullum with the sleeves cut off. I feel pretty butch, despite being the straightest person on the planet (I realise using “butch” here is appropriative, apologies).
Should I grow my hair back? Should I wear more dresses? Should I just take a day off work, go to Westfield & slaughter my credit card? Should I dye my hair pink again??
I think I need a personal stylist and a career coach. And someone to remind me to get up earlier so that I can put on mascara & eat a proper breakfast.
Thursday: bench at BGWLC
I wasn’t really feeling this – I was tired and my shoulder is hella sore right now.
- Bench: worked up to 2 x 2 @ 45kg; then 4 singles at 47.5kg
- Narrow bench press to 4 boards: 40kg, 10 reps x 3
- JM press: 30kg, 10 reps x 3
- Machine rows: 20kg each hand, 10 reps x 3
- Upright rows: 20kg bar, 7 reps x 3
- Leg raises, spiders
Bonus picture of me in my shorts from last weekend because it’s probably not going to be warm enough for shorts this weekend 😦 Note the awesome tiling in my kitchen, which I did myself ✊ I’m tiling the bathroom floor in a couple of weeks’ time.